I feel so bad

I woke up to the dryer still running, having to pee, being so thirsty I couldn't believe it, and Mr Baby screaming at me for having gotten out of bed. Bathroom, basement, and then to the kitchen to get a drink of water. And that is where I lost it. He wouldn't quit screaming at me, not crying, screaming, with capital screams even. I lost my patience and spalshed some water on him. Yeah, I know, it didn't make him quit screaming at me. Poor baby, I love him so much, and I don't want to lose my temper like that, all I can say is at least I didn't do anything worse. It still bothers me that I did it.